Tuesday, June 19, 2012

Off-Track; On-Track

Monday's post that I save instead of publishing! Again!

I have noticed that everything seems to go to heck on the weekends. I wasn't one of these people in the past, but now I'm understanding it.  I'm trying to figure out a plan to best handle my lack of exercise (making Saturday my rest day has been a good start) and tracking my eating.

Here are my problems...

It's summer. I'm busy. I like to be active on the weekends, but not always in a workout type of way. For example, I did a bit of walking and was on my feet for quite a while on Saturday. I was active and social, but it wasn't a workout.

As much as I've always said it's easy to find workout time, I'm seeing how sometimes it isn't as easy. When I would travel a lot on the weekends, I didn't worry as much about it. Now that I've had other things going on and I've been home more, I seem to be more focused on it. Weird? I'm not sure why that is.  It's like when I was gone I allowed myself to miss my traditional workouts. Now that I'm around home (although I'm busy and usually gone most of the time; just not as far away), I am worrying more. I don't know what that's about.... Maybe I just feel like I need to be more active. Who knows.

Eating. Ohhhh that has not been good. The same applies here. When I was gone a lot and didn't track as well, it didn't bother me. Now that I'm around home more (although still technically "gone") I'm more annoyed with myself about it. I don't think I'm doing anything that's much worse than I had been doing, but now the being "home" notion seems to make me more annoyed with myself. 

Maybe it's because I allowed myself a good reason for missing it before, but I should feel the same now. Sometimes spending time with the special people in your life makes it okay (in my opinion) to miss a workout. Or even two. Eating out two days in a row? That's okay at those times too. Yet when I do it here (or even eat differently at my parents' house; i.e. foods I don't normally have), I feel guilty.

I think a lot of it is because I had surgery. Now I'm super focused on making sure I behave myself and keep myself healthy. After putting myself through surgery, I'm not all too eager to gain any weight. I haven't gained. I've slowly lost, but I am not where I think I should be or really want to be.

In regard to my exercise and eating I seem to let myself lose control (not out of control; just not as controlled as during the week) on the weekends.  I have an app to track food right there on my phone. Do I do it? Nope. Well, some but not all and not consistently. Part of that is because it's a pain to do because not everything comes up when I search on the app, but it does on the computer (WHAT is that about!?).

I started this running plan with the intention of following it (10K training). One week in and I missed two days. That annoys me. I don't like getting off-track like that. But at the same time, I don't like missing out on events with family and friends. Now that I've started week two, I'm doing my best to stick to it.  I know that if I get enough sleep I can get up in the morning to do what I need to do. It's just a matter of getting enough (and good quality) sleep....I definitely need to work on that!!

As of now I'm viewing my day off as Sunday instead of Saturday. It'll just work better for me that way. I'm thinking that I can get up early Saturday and do my Sunday workout. Then Sunday will be my rest day. Monday evening I should be able to start week 3 without difficulty. Hmmm...Looks good written down, but Friday night will determine how well that works out. It seems that something always comes up. Oh! And Friday...I'll probably have to get up and get moving early Friday morning for a workout, which means super early because of work. Do I see this happening? Honestly; no. Hopefully I'll find the time Friday evening, if I don't get up early.

So....That's where I'm at. I'm not really off-track but I'm not on-track in the way that I'd like to be. Or like I used to be. I was so strict at one point. Then again, at that time I didn't do much of anything. I always said "no" when I was invited out with friends. I was too afraid to eat dinner out. Or have a drink. I was probably too strict.  I know that at that time I was very in control, and that's when I lost weight. I knew that eventually I'd have to start living in the real world again, meaning eating out and socializing. 

Am I happy with my current weight? Yes and no.  I'm far from where I once was, but I'd like to be a little smaller. Not a lot, but some. I'll never be a 100 pound stick figure (nor do I want to - no offense to anyone but YUCK). 

Last week was kind of a hard week for me. I was just really emotional and felt kind of blah; a little depressed, probably. I'm feeling better today so hopefully I can get back to where I want to be. The weekend will be hard with the fun events I have going on, but I'm going to try my absolute hardest. At worst I'll blow through all of my extra WW points over the weekend (sad, but seriously it could happen). I guess I might as well use them when I need them!!

I was feeling kind of "blah" yesterday too...I was in one of those "I don't care" modes. Had the wrong foods been around, I'd have binged like a crazy woman. It's a good thing I don't buy those things. After a good run I felt a lot better and I think the run is just what I needed to get myself back on-track for the week. Now? I feel like it'll be a good week, with an exciting weekend reward!!!

Have a great week!!


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