Wednesday, November 7, 2012

More on TurboFire and Thanks.

I managed to NOT start TurboFire last night. Amazingly, I stuck to my plan for the day! It was highly tempting but I had a headache, which I think was what saved me from it. After I did my DVD routines, I felt like I should've done more. I love that feeling... I burned over 600 calories, worked out twice yesterday, and wanted more!

Instead of starting TurboFire I had dinner, cleaned up the kitchen a little, and did a few other things around the house. Then I got down to business. I pulled everything out of the TurboFire box. I inspected it all, flipped through every piece of paper that came with it, and basically just immersed myself with TurboFire for a while. I read the books and learned about TurboFire. I also discovered some new recipes that looked pretty good. I'll have to flip through it again when I make out my grocery list for next week.

Side note, while we're on the topic of food/recipes: I discovered this recipe for a quinoa stuffing when I logged into Blogger and looked at my reading list. It looks pretty good! I'm not an onion fan, so I'd omit that. It looks like a great side dish for Thanksgiving, or anytime. There's also a suggestion to add turkey sausage to it, to make it a meal! YUM! I have quinoa at home so I'm going to have to make this next week - probably with the sausage. If it weren't for having appointments I'd be making it tonight!! That site also has a lot of Thanksgiving recipes, which I would recommend checking out... Especially if you're looking to make your Thanksgiving meal a little lighter!

Back to the orignial topic...

I revamped the workout schedule that I made last week. I added TurboFire workouts where I thought that they'd best fit. In adding TurboFire I'm going to have to get up a little earlier in the morning, and will have two-a-day workouts pretty much every day. I decided to leave Sunday as a complete rest day, instead of the Wednesday rest that's in the TurboFire plan. I'm going to try this and see how it goes. There are days where doing what I already had scheduled seemed like a lot. I may omit something on those days (mostly my long run days).  If I run eight miles, I'll likely burn over 800 calories. I probably do not need to add in extra workouts and burn even more. BUT we shall see. If I do them, then fabulous - I'll feel awesome! If I don't do them, I won't get angry with myself.

I will officially be starting TurboFire on Monday morning. I'm so excited!  I am pretty impressed with myself too. For someone who was stuck in a rut of doing the same exercises (running, walking, and a little biking) over and over again, I'm really shaking things up. I'll continue those exercises. Running will be limited to my training runs, three days a week. Biking is pretty much just thrown in whenever I decided that I needed an extra 30 minutes of some light cardio. I think I'll look forward to those days, since biking will the be activity I'll be doing the least. I thought I did pretty well adding BBL and RB to my agenda. NOW I'm adding another program!

I feel proud.  I don't think my routine has ever been this involved before.  I have always been good about walking and running. I've gone in streaks of adding various DVDs to my routine. If I set out to do something like the 30 Day Shred; I finished it. Other routines, without a time schedule, were just done whenever. I did well with Body Rock when I was doing that. But then I just fell out of the habit of it.  I'll probably get back into that later on... Maybe I'll add some of those in after I'm finished with my current programs. Or maybe I won't.

What matters right now is that I'm feeling good after just a short time doing this program. I'm not trying to push you into any one fitness routine or program. I'm just happy that my body feels like I've been working and it's making me feel good. The one thing I don't like is that I feel big. Not fat...Just big. I suppose that's a good thing though because that means I'm working hard.

Hopefully this routine will really benefit me. I'm hoping that the change in workouts will help me through my current weight loss plateau, and to reach my weight loss goal by the end of the year. I've been doing well with eating; staying in my calorie range and avoiding bad foods (so far) this week. It's all about portions and balance. I'm very serious and highly motivated to drop a few pounds.
that I've been doing since I made these changes is not weighing myself every day. 

Another thing I've been doing is not weighing myself daily.  I weighed in for my official weekly weigh-in on Saturday. I have not been on the scale since. I've not measured or checked my body fat (I mean really, WHO honestly believes those changes happen THAT fast!? Not me!). The scale is the big thing for me though. I have a habit of being (pretty much) a daily weigher. I like to know what I've done and what direction I'm headed.  If I'm gaining, I want to know so I can figure out what's going on. I don't want to wait an entire week and be surprised by what the scale says.  On the other hand, when it's a good surprise, it's nice to see it at one time rather than slowly!  I'm definitely proud of myself for staying off the scale. Not weighing for a few days may not sound like a lot to some, but for me, that's an accomplishment. I've tried, several times, to weigh only weekly and haven't done well with it. I have done weights no more than three times a week, but weekly (for more than a week) has been something I haven't done.  I am SUPER tempted to check my weight in the morning, but I don't.  I think that these morning workouts have helped with that. I'm too busy getting ready to do whatever it is that I'm going to do, to worry about the scale. Distraction is sometimes good!!

In addition to being excited to start TurboFire...I'm already anticipating getting ChaLean Extreme, but I most definitely need to be done with (at least) the RB and BBL program before I try to add something else. The TurboFire book has a hybrid schedule for TurboFire and ChaLean, so maybe at the beginning of the year, I'll add that in.

The BBL/RB program is set to go through the end of December. My current TurboFire schedule will last about that long too; going into the first of January. I'm starting with the TurboFire PREP schedule. When that's done, I'll start the 20 week TurboFire program... I just may start ChaLean at that time too. I'm not going to get that far ahead of myself.  I think that having eight weeks of workouts already scheduled is enough for right now. As the end time for what I'm doing now approaches, I'll see how I want to do my next schedule.

I'm very excited for these workouts as well as to see my results!!


On to the second part of this post (which is already a much longer post than I anticipated... Yay for lunch break and a few spare minutes here and there; before/between appointments)...

I'm doing this 30 Days of Thanks thing on facebook. Each day in November I update with what I'm thankful for. Honestly this is probably the majority of my facebooking these days... I go in streaks where I'm into it or I'm not. I'm not as into it now as usual...Anyway...

Generally these posts are things like family, my dogs, friends, a job, etc... Today I took a different approach and had a pretty decent response. I just wanted to share it here because one of my friends pointed out that it's "important."

Taken from my status:

Day 7: This one is a little different... Today I'm thankful for the people who don't know me, but judge me; the people who talk negatively and gossip about me; the people who try to drag me down; the people who always have something to say about me/my life whether their opinion is wanted or not. Why? These people give me a reason to be an even stronger person than I am. They remind me that I no longer let things like that beat me down. I hold my head high and realize that no matter the reason (often jealousy) SOMEONE will have SOMETHING to say. These people remind me of how far I've come....That I can accomplish more than I ever thought possible. These people make me want to work harder to be a better me, and to prove them wrong....Because usually they are!

The truth is that no matter what you do there's always going to be someone out there with something to say about you. I used to let things like that bother me. They bothered me so much that I'd get really upset and hold on to their nasty words for far too long.  It took me a long time to let those feelings go. Now if it happens I will defend myself or ignore it, depending on what's said or the situation. Most of the time it's better to just let it go.

What someone else says about you, based on gossip that they've heard, what they think, or what they see doesn't matter. It's not important. What matters most is how YOU feel about yourself; how you see yourself. After you, the thoughts of your family and friends are important...But they should never take over how you feel about yourself. Even the people close to you may say something that shakes you up. I think that hurts more than comments from strangers (or people who used to be in your life and now are determined to hurt you). I feel very lucky to have parents who have been nothing but supportive and encouraging of me throughout my life. I know that not everyone is so lucky and sometimes the very people who bring you down are those who you're closest to.

There's a reason someone is talking about you. You probably don't know what it is, but there is. Sometimes there's good gossip being spread about you. Unfortunately those positive words don't seem to go as far as the negative. They don't always stay with you as long as the negative. You have to learn to overcome the negativity. Sure, sometimes you'll react emotionally; that's normal.

I am most definitely not saying that I am immune to the negativity. It does still hurt, but I don't take it in the same way that I used to. Now I use it to motivate myself; to become stronger. If it weren't for the negative words of others, how would I have gotten to be who I am? My ability to handle hurt has helped to shape me into the individual I am today. I've accepted that people will always have a reason to say something. I honestly feel that many times it's some sort of jealousy, or a fear.

When I was fat, I heard the comments. Some were directed to my face and others were said behind my back.  They hurt me.  I didn't say "hey, jerk! I KNOW I'm fat." Instead I got so healthy food to binge on as I cried. It was never in front of them. Unless it was one of those situations where it was someone intentionally trying to hurt me. Then I'd react. Most of the time though I'd sit alone and binge until I felt sick. It was a secret that I hid.  It was a secret that I wish I never had. I wish I wouldn't have let the words and actions of others hurt me so badly; so deeply. But I did. Soon I began to believe them and felt even worse.

It wasn't until I was fed up and decided to change my lifestyle that I changed my attitude. It no longer mattered what someone else said. It was how I felt and what I believed about myself that mattered. It still is. 

The comments have changed because now there's something new for people to judge me on. 

I hear things about my "weird" (healthy!) eating habits. I try new things and I know people must roll their eyes at me. That's okay... It's my body and just because I choose to fill it with things that they don't doesn't mean anything.  Those are usually not mean-spirited comments though.... They're usually people just wondering what I must be thinking. Most of the time I laugh along and try to explain my healthy eating.

Sometimes I hear people say that I'm "crazy" because I like exercise so much. I suppose if liking to exercise and provide my body with benefits is crazy, then I am happy to accept that title! Bring on the crazy - I've got a workout to do!!

Then there's my appearance. WHY is it that appearances are what people seem to gossip about the most.

First, I've heard things about how I lost weight.... I've heard that I had weight loss surgery. I've heard that I developed anorexia or bulimia. I've heard that I've gone on some insane diet. Every now and then I've heard that I did it by improving my lifestyle and becoming healthy. Ding! That last one; that's the one.  Actually no, that's not it. Really an alien spaceship beamed me up, Scotty style, and put me through some weird experiments and sucked that weight right out of me. They replaced it with some alien technology and now I'm here to help them take over the world. That's just how ridiculous I feel like the other assumptions are.

 Also... if you want to know, JUST ASK.

 If I had used another method, I'd be open enough to discuss it. If I had an eating disorder, I'd hope that this blog would be about my journey to recovery. 

FYI.... People making jokes or statements about bodies based on eating disorders really annoys me. They're a serious disease, not something to joke about. Those jokes and comments hurt people who live with them even more.

Even worse than how I lost weight, now I am criticized for how I look. I've heard people say "you can stop now."  Um....I don't want to stop now. I'm healthy, but I'm not exactly where I want to be. I do not look sick. I am not sick.  I will stop when I have reached a weight/appearance that is right for ME. Thank you for your opinion though.

I've also received some very nasty comments about me from people who do not know me.  I can only speculate that this is based on my level of attractiveness.  Clearly I dress well and look good, so I must be a bitch (ugh, I cringed writing that but that's a word that was used...NOT one that I prefer to put in my posts!). Yes... I dress up to go to dinner at a local restaurant that doesn't require dressing up. I am not dressed for the opera or a ball. I look good though. I LIKE to wear dresses and heals! Doing my hair and make-up makes me feel good. In my opinion, it makes me look better.

I'm not trying to claim to be the most beautiful person in the world. I know I'm not. I'm also not that vain. I am, however, able to share how I feel about myself. After years of hiding because I thought I was ugly, I am going to come out and say "yes, I am an attractive person." There is nothing wrong with that. It doesn't mean that I am conceited.

It means that after years, I finally see myself for who I am (inside and out!). It means that I have self-confidence; that my self-esteem has dramatically improved. I do not walk around like Queen Sexy Bee. I don't tell others that they're ugly.  Confidence does not mean arrogant. It does not mean that I think I'm the best ever and no one else compares. My confidence is not about anyone else. It's about me and how I feel about myself.

I let people determine how I felt about myself way too much when I was obese. I'm not going to do that now that I'm not. What I look like doesn't matter. Someone will always find something negative to say about it. I am just thankful that I have learned to accept, and love, myself as I am. That's something more beautiful than how I look.

I realize that this got a little off-track from what I originally posted about being thankful, but I also felt that a little explanation should accompany it.

My point with all of that is that you should try your hardest to love yourself, no matter what people say. I know it's hard, but find a way to bash their negativity down with your positivity. Not externally... Please don't fight! I'm saying internally... Within you. Those negative people are not going to care what you think about what they said. I think that if you react to them, that will only fuel their fire. If you ignore them, keep smiling, and keep feeling good about your amazing self, they will either get bored or talk more. Let them talk because at the end of the day what they say isn't what matters... It's the person you are, how you act, and above all how you feel about yourself that truly matters.

Have an awesome day; full of self-love! YOU deserve it!

XOXO


3 comments:

  1. I hate it that people don't understand that this isn't a fad, its a life style change.....gee

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  2. I remember my sister telling me of an incident that happened to her in high school. My sister was in high school in the mid 80's. Fashions were different then. She wore a red stripe down her hair and rad clothes. People at school, we'll call them haters, started to talk about her. One person told her, "I bet you think you're so cool" My sister said, "No but obviously you do or else you wouldn't have brought it up. You're thinking about me which is kinda weird. The best part is that I NEVER think about you."
    What I learned while bulimic is that exactly what you mentioned in your post you will never make everyone happy. Some people thought I was too big at 220lbs. Some people thought I was too skinny at 138lb. You have to live to be happy with yourself. That's a much harder lesson to learn for me. I'm learning to grow a thicker skin but there is still that part of me that wants others' approval. I'm working at being healthier and slimmer because I want to be not because I feel pressure from others.

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  3. Me too!! It's life...That's all there is to it! :)

    I agree, Veronica - it's gotta be about you and how you feel, no one else. It is hard to ignore the "haters" and learn to listen to yourself but you've gotta find the strength to over come it. It's nice to look back at how far you've come, isn't it?

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