Thursday, April 25, 2013

The Yuckies.

I am officially sick... It's either nasty allergy/sinus stuff or a bad cold. I'm treating my symptoms with allergy and cold medicines.  Breathing is a little rough so I haven't done any running, but have been continuing to workout. Normally when I'm sick it's easy to reach for comfort food but I am not doing that. I'm definitely sticking to eating healthy foods and not overeating. THAT feels really good.

Eating has been awesome this week. Because I wasn't losing weight with what I was eating, I decided to decrease my calories again. I'm trying to get about 1200 a day. I'll see how that works. I've also limited my fruit (sugar!) intake. Hopefully that will help too. There are some other things I feel a little out of control about and taking such a strong hold of my eating and exercise makes me feel a little better. I have something, and right now that's what I need.

Emotionally... I'm getting there. I am feeling a bit better today. Being sick doesn't help, but I'm better than I was earlier in the week. I seem to be handling life okay. At the moment anyway. I have my moments of wanting to break. And I am still very tired and would like to sleep. Last night I didn't sleep well...Not as well as I had been other nights (once I fell asleep anyway). I woke up twice during the night and had trouble getting back to sleep. I know I tossed and turned a lot so I was likely awake a little more than that. I had a couple vivid dreams and one wasn't so great. Actually, neither was great but one really bothered me... I think it's because of some anxiety I'm experiencing right now. It made its way into my dream.

I am ready for the weekend. I'm ready for some distraction and some fun. I think that distraction is helping a little more than it did earlier in the week. I am able to keep my mind off of those things that bother me and I've even laughed a little. I'm finding that I'm better able to keep busy with other things, which keep my mind from wandering.  I still feel bummed when I sit down on the couch to relax or lay down to sleep at night.

Other than that I suppose things are good. I feel pretty good - probably because I'm not eating junk! I'm hoping I'm shedding some pounds this week. I FEEL like I should be, so I'm hopeful that when Saturday comes my weight will be less....Working hard and hanging on to hope.  Seems like I'm hanging on to hope a lot these days. But it's when you lose hope that things get worse. So I'm holding on for dear life, and doing what I can to make things good for me.

Oh! I got some good news from my plastic surgeon's office. I'm going in for my next consult a little earlier (two weeks). Surgery won't be any earlier, but just doing the consult will make me feel like it's getting closer. I mean it IS getting closer... I'm excited. Nervous. And ready!

I hope you are having a fantastic week!


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