Motivation. Mine is missing. STILL. It's been missing for a while. I am not sure where it's gone or how to find it again. I NEED to. I want to...Or at least I think I do. Sometimes I think that if I wanted it that badly, I'd just do it. I'm not sure if it's been the weather lately or what. When it's hot and humid, my motivation decreases. I'm at work in air conditioning all day and feel great and motivated. Then I get home and feel blah. Today isn't as warm or humid, so I'll see how it goes. I REALLY hope it's just the weather and now that it's cooling down I'll feel a bit better. Or at least more motivated.
It's not just motivation with exercise either...It's with all things. I have been doing a "little bit" here and there around the house. I'm not motivated to do all that I need to do. I procrastinate until my boyfriend is going to come over and then I go into a cleaning frenzy. So in addition to losing my motivation, I'm procrastinating. I am doing this with everything "oh, I'll do this tomorrow..." or find myself saying "well, I ruined today alrady, so I might as well wait..."
I'm trying to figure out why I don't feel motivated to do anything. Part of me wonders if it is the medication change. Maybe this new med isn't doing what it should. Or maybe it isn't fully into my system yet... I haven't even been on it for a month yet, and it can take several weeks to get to the fully therapeutic level. I don't feel depressed, hopeless or anything like that. I'm just not motivated to do anything. Well, except craft projects... I've been motivated to work on projects so that's good.
I need to get back into running and such, especially since I have some races coming up!!! I'm not going to do well if I'm not ready to roll! One race is in a week and a couple days. It's crunch time. NOW I feel like I need to get going. Why do I need to be under pressure to get my butt moving to do things lately? At the moment, I just don't know.
I suppose I need to take some time for self-reflection and self-discovery. Something within me isn't where it needs to be. I'm the only one who can figure it out and change. Obviously I've hit a bump in the road. I need to figure out how to get over it, otherwise I'll remain stuck where I am. I just hope I can do so sooner than later. I'm hoping the weather change helps. I'm also going to try to rekindle my love for working out, because lately I haven't felt it. I need my fire back.. I've gotta find it!!
How are you doing in your own journey?
Hope your week is going well!!