Monday, March 30, 2015

That Day I Thought My Boyfriend Called Me Fat....

So yesterday my darling boyfriend made some comment about how we need to eat healthier so that I can get back to where I was when we first met.  The look on my face must have said it all because the look on his face was one that would probably say "oh crap, I messed up."  Luckily, I did not jump to any conclusions and kept my mouth shut and allowed him to continue.

He wasn't calling me fat.  He has never called me fat.  He's never said anything about me, even when I'm wearing my old comfy yoga pants with the holes, a sweatshirt, and my hair is in a top knot. The thing is that I keep saying it.  My boyfriend was not trying to insult me.  My boyfriend was telling me that he is finally on board with getting some better eating habits. He was telling me that he supports me and he wants to show that support by the two of us eating healthier together. 

I sure am glad I didn't jump to conclusions and start to cry and say something I'd later regret.  I'm sure my expression said enough.

Here's the thing... Not only have I gained some weight in our almost two years together.  So has he.  It's happy weight, but he weighs more than he ever has.  Has his gut grown? Yes.  Do I ever say anything negative about it? No. I hardly even notice. Sure if I look at pictures, I see it...Just like with myself. 

I'm happy that he made that comment... It shows that we are on the same page and we are supportive of one another. He even said he'll try my weird recipes... Except spaghetti squash. He has major thoughts of disgust when it comes to spaghetti squash. One of these days I may need to surprise him with it somehow.... Or maybe convince him to try just a little taste of mine. Otherwise, though, I feel amazing that he is ready to commit to a healthier lifestyle.  It will not only help us both, I think that it will help to bring us even closer together.  

Now if I can convince him to workout I'll be super happy - but one step at a time, and he'll have to make that decision on his own.  I did get him to try a couple yoga poses yesterday when he tried to tell me yoga isn't that challenging.  He had difficulty with one and wouldn't even try the others, immediately saying, "I can't do that!" He was teasing me about the yoga; not seriously criticizing what I love.  He's a great support and is really encouraging with anything that I do.

To change gears... Today I did my morning yoga routine and Combat 30.  I'm hoping to sneak in my evening yoga because it's so relaxing and I LOVE it at the end of the day, but we'll see. I really enjoy our together time and chatting while he watches his man soap opera. And he's kinda gotten me into it too.  I'm just finishing at the office and by the time I get home and get dinner ready, it'll be getting late. Oh!  Instead of following along with the DVD that I normally do, I think I'll do some calming poses while he watches TV. That will actually be a good challenge for me... By staying in the same room with distractions, it will help me to focus on myself and my breathing - it will challenge me to block out those distractions.  This will be a fun experiment.

I suppose I should wrap up for the evening. 

Hope life finds you well!


Sunday, March 29, 2015


I finally found my missing piece. As you know I've struggled off and on as far as eating, gained weight back, and had a hard time losing. I've never struggled with doing some kind of workout and continue to consistently workout at least five days a week. I've really gotten into yoga a lot over the last month and it's transforming me. 

Don't get me wrong, I still love getting runner's high and crossing the finish at a race (even if I am much slower these days). I love lifting weights. I've become more of a diverse athlete... ,ore well-rounded in terms of my fitness. I'm constantly mixing things up.  On busy days that I can't lift weights or do a major cardio session, I do yoga or pilates in my office. Some days I have time for two 30 ,impute sessions. Sometimes I am lucky to be able to do a full hour. I do yoga daily - at least 30 minutes in the morning or night. I strive for both. Yes, that's even on days that I do other workouts. 

In addition to my yoga, I'm doing Combat and Chalene Extreme. There are days I jog instead of doing combat but there haven't been as many of those lately. I'm burnt out on the treadmill and it's still too cold for my wimpy self to get outside. I do the elliptical as a substitute. 

Diet still hasn't been great but over the last week I've felt way more transformed and am back on track. My boyfriend even expressed that he's ready to give up yucky food and eat healthier. Bonus!! That's a huge need for both of us and with him more on board it will be easier. I'm glad he's there. 

Anyway... Yoga. It's more than a form of exercise. It's a way of life. I feel more in touch with my mind and body. I feel stronger but physically and mentally. I feel at peace, calm, and happy. I've started meditating which isn't easy. My mind likes to go 100 miles a minute. Like my poses, my meditation needs practice... But it will improve. Right now I focus on my breathing which helps. I do chant "om" which is also helpful. I have found some great mantras! I really need to invest in some mala beads. I, having a hard time choosing because they're costly. However, mala beads are said to choose the person. It shouldn't be a major decision... You buy the ones you're drawn to (which is why they are said to choose you). I think it's the price tag that's holding me back. As my meditation improves, I will need to buy them. Malas have 108 beads; the number of times you should chant your phrase. The beads help keep count. I hit up the two local health foods stores and got some groceries over the weekend. And tea. I love my tea. 

I just ordered some mala bracelets from Mala Collective (which is where I will buy my mala bead necklace). They have great products. AND, if you sign up for their newsletter, you get 10% off of your first order!! Awesome, right!?! 

I really feel like this new way of life; this new mentality is helping me to get back to where I need to be. I feel this whole new level of clarity... My outlook and motivation have changed. I honestly cannot accurately describe hie amazing yoga has made me feel. 

Seriously.... Check it out. 

I'll be back with another post sooner than later. I think that with finding this new way of thinking, I will be posting much more often.